BITTERBIRTHDAY.

i think it is going to be worse than bitter. it is going to be so farked up and dull. i mean like hello? i am gonna be 16 :D! but i have math remedial on that day, i have to go lectures on that day, peipei and gloria is going germany on that day, everybody is going somewhere on that day! even me! sigh. some birthday. and now all my mum could help was a simple dinner. thanks. i don t mean to sound spoilt. but this is the chance where i can watch a NC16 movie! play some pool! i really want something like WILDER for my party. sigh. although it is the thought that counts, i can t help feeling fed up and idoitic. HAPPY ADVANCE FARKING BIRTHDAY JINGYUN.

i don t think making fun of people is nice. i really feel like bashing you guys up. It is like over already!

today is the first time i panted while taking neoprints. Yvonne was gonna be the death of me!

i don t want to blog. i need to go somewhere else to bury my burden.

SPORTS DAY :D

i never expected myself to get 3rd in 800m finals
i never expected myself to get 3rd in 200m finals.
i never expected to be the champion of interhouse basketball
and i never expected our class to be the champion :D

so freaking happy lorh :D

i saw a lot of my old friends today. yvonne and peipei and chen qiu can t stop making fun of me -.- this is what you call friends huh D;

today he smiled at me :D
feel so ticklish. HAHAHAHAHAs.
i smiled back tooo!

lalalas-

anyway i had this strange call about me being the selected few being trained to be a artist. i thought my mother would be really supportive but she said it is BOOGUSSSS and there is only one acting company which is MEDIACORP :l and when i ask her to come along, she nicely replied,

" i don t want to get kidnapped too."

HOW SUPPORTIVE.

i am soooo tired. Chinese O level is coming. Can i do it? aiyarh, if i pass. I AM HAPPY ENOUGH as i am a BANANA :D

today zhi jie said something irritating :l
and i had a weird dream that i was holding somebody's hand , no wait, hugging actually.

i hugged yvonne today.
i didn t want to see his face :D

my legs ache like crazy and i really want to play a guitar :D

i havent updated for soooooo long :] guess i have been really stressed up about my MYE or plain lazy :] I PREFER THE FIRST CHOICE :D It does not really push the blame to me , so lalalalas, i shall escape my punishment of not updating for soooooo long :D

MYE is finally over! I am sure all of them will have this nice like line underneath like this:
F9

FANTASTIC, Fkeep it up girl!, Fexcellent, Fgreat,Fwell done, Fgood job!

and all this nice things go on except with the big letter F in front of it.
simply FSPLENDID.

gosh, i think i am going to die ):

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i've got my heats tomorrow.
i don t think i can run with my choked up system. I guess i shall do the best i can :l

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went out to J8 today. I think it was alright . I mean at least we went out right?

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may i know when is the marking day and polling day holiday ):

sheet lor. Mr Wong say our result damn bad CAN. I mean i tried so hard . You think people want to fail? I think my geography is doomed too. My map-reading damn lousy. YEAH sure the gradient is difference in height over distance . In the first place, what is the height ): DIE LORH. i just sui bian give a stupid number. The highest for SS is Justin? OMG, me leh? ME LEH? feeling so farked up. I HATE THIS.

i keep studying the wrong subjects. It did not help that my father make it worse. I skip dinner just to study geography . SO THIS IS MEANT TO BE A GOOD THING RIGHT? My mother was suppose to buy back dinner but in the end my father didn t allow her to buy because i didn t JOIN THEM IN THE FIRST PLACE . so sheet lor. In the end i had to eat the burger that mother bought for me for lunch. So to let my father think that i am suppose to be 'starving'. I took the unwanted raisin bread, cut it into a circle and wrap it with the fillet O fish wrapper and place it back into the fridge. OMG- HOW DISGUSTING EH. Too bad.

later i found out that my mother cried because she could not do anything to help me and he add on to my problems. Then i just shrugged lor. I mean what am i supposed to do?

i think i am going bonkers .

this is only MYE but i am getting all so stress up. I think SS paper and obviously my CHINESE paper is doomed for sure. GAWD. Seriously is it that hard to pass or is it just me?

yesterday i saw something i was not suppose to see. I felt super uncomfortable. I could not tell anyone about it . Even i, myself, at first did not believe it. Later , i keep telling myself , i can t tell this to anyone. Because you cannot never look the same way at that person again. I was already so stressed up, thinking about it almost made me went retarded. I think my mother actually sensed something wrong. It took her quite a while to get me to say it. And when i finally spit it out, She said she saw it too. But both of us can only pretend nothing is wrong and go on with life. Why didn t she felt mad? Betrayed?

don t ask me what did i see.
i dun want to think about it anymore.

I hate MYE.